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A gift of hope

Green shoots of hope – I’ve just had a lovely message from a generous man, a rare philanthropist, who is offering to match the money we raise this year for CHAS (Children’s Hospices Across Scotland) through our Scotland’s Gardens Scheme openings.

He means it, he was so impressed by what he learned about CHAS when he visited The Pond Garden two years ago he made a three figure donation. With your support we can help him give more this year.

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Galanthus “Trumps” at Pond Cottage

Here we are. At the start of our visiting season I’m not in the best of moods but I stop reading the news to take a walk round the garden and I can’t help smiling when I find the snowdrop given by a dear, gardening friend last year. Perky, eye catching, Galanthus “Trumps” could do with a new name, I think, but what a beauty.

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A Himalayan birch for Ronnie

“I just enjoy being among the mountains, that’s good enough, I don’t need to get to the top…” Ronnie Faux, born Burnley 8 November 1935, died Carlisle 16 July 2024. 

Before this turbulent 2024 ends, there’s still just time to add one more tree story. We have planted a Himalayan birch in memory of our dear friend Ronnie Faux. It seems a good match for an adventurer who enjoyed clinging to rocky ridges in snowy places.

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Mud pies and memories of freedom

Open the door and there’s a big green velvet curtain to keep the living room warm, in granny’s bedroom a pretty dressing table set decorated with pink – maybe purple? – flowers. A potty tucked discreetly under the bed.

No bathroom. The toilet is outside in a whitewashed washhouse. At bedtime the grandchildren are marched dutifully across with a big red torch until a rabbit appears in the field on the other side of the hedge. And they’re off…

“Freedom! That’s what it was. Freedom to do what we wanted.”

Memories fill the room. Memories and laughter with three grown women, Mary, Anne and Marian, sitting round a table in a room that didn’t exist on their weekend visits to their grandparents at Pond Cottage more than 60 years ago. [Press play to join them.]

[Music: Morgan Szymanski and Tommy Perman – Canción de la Luna (Homage to Debussy)

Get a bulldozer?

“Get a bulldozer.” Sir David Montgomery of the Kinross House Estate. who sold us the ten acre site delivered the advice kindly, not altogether joking. But we didn’t. Though we have sometimes wondered if it might have been easier to start from scratch, over the last 30 years we have built, and rebuilt, extended outwards and upwards and by 2023, when we finally moved in, Pond Cottage was perhaps three times bigger than the ruin we saw in 1993.

Hence my nerves as I waited to meet the three grown up grandchildren. I didn’t know what they would make of the changes to their childhood home from home. They couldn’t have been kinder.

“It’s lovely…”

In fact Anne and Mary have been here before at different stages of our home-making. It’s Marian’s first time since she played here with her older brother Jimmy – the very same ‘JCB Jimmy’ Louden who has been a vital part of our restoration projects over three decades: building the road, dredging the pond, excavating flood defences, helping Ray service the wind turbine…

I place a recorder on the table but first we look at the photos they’ve brought and sift through our collection – the snaps we gathered at the start of our adventure in an age before the smartphone. There’s a younger Jimmy smiling from our scrapbook, and a younger me with Ray at the ruined front door. There’s little girls smiling with granny and grandad at the gate in the 1960s.

We pore over old ordnance survey maps which seem to date the existing pond in the early 20th century, but there’s also the older 19th century Mill Pond now long since returned to wet woodland. The maps raise tantalising questions about the mill, the ponds, the cottage, the woodland, the first people to live and work here.

We knew the cottage was built around 1920 when Kinross House estate, for many years the biggest landowners in the area, bought the Hattonburn estate. But we didn’t know much more than that. Until now.

I start the recorder. What do they remember most? [Press Play to find out]

[Music: Morgan Szymanski and Tommy Perman, Track Moonrise (Luna de la Rosa)]

There’s no script, no plan. Just a flow of memories and a lot of laughter. Mary, Anne and Marion describe a different childhood world and yet there are echoes of the games my grandchildren play when they put down their iPads – long live mud kitchens, building dams in the burn, and chasing rabbits!

‘I wish Dad could see it’

The memories are full of social history, they stir a need to know much more about the network of ponds fed by the stream, the stories hidden beneath farmland and magnificent old trees.

Right now, listening again to the extracts I chose with my son Bobby I’m enjoying the warmth and energy of the voices. Such affection and respect for the hardworking lives lived by their grandparents and parents. After grandad James Patrick died in 1961, granny Mary moved out and the cottage fell empty.

It’s touching to discover their son, also James Patrick [Mary and Anne’s father, Marion’s uncle], knew about the cottage’s decline. He had been born and brought up here, eventually became the village blacksmith (we have found horseshoes possibly made during his apprenticeship) and in his old age had been saddened to discover the old place was derelict, vandalised and daubed with graffiti. But there was a happier twist.

“We came snooping,” says Anne with a laugh.

“Dad had picked up that the cottage was up for sale. He said something like, ‘I think this is the old house’. So it’s so nice to see what you’ve done… I wish Dad could see it, he would totally love it” [Press play to come ‘snooping’]

[Music: Morgan Szymanski and Tommy Perman, Track Moonset (Pine Spectrals)]

We have a great deal more to explore and discover and I’m hoping these generous storytellers will be back. Apart from anything else, I can’t believe I let them go without capturing a photo of three smiling women by the new front gate!


Thank you to Bobby Perman for editing, sound mixing and adding music

Thank you Tommy Perman and Morgan Szymanski for allowing extracts from their beautiful album Music for the Moon and Trees composed at Pond Cottage in 2019.

Four poems for a budget of winners and losers – what hope?

‘And remember to give them hope.’ Alastair Darling, November 2024.

[I wrote this for Sceptical Scot’s poetry section in November 2024 when there still seemed some room for sceptical hope. Reposting in March 2025. Where’s the hope for the losers in Rachel Reeves Spring Statement?]

Looking back, the words seem to echo.  On 19 December 2023, Rachel Reeves was speaking from the pulpit at the memorial service of Alastair Darling in an overflowing St Mary’s Cathedral, the Episcopal one at Edinburgh’s West End.

Then shadow chancellor, she paid tribute to the much-respected man she described as her mentor, most memorably adding a moving description of her recent visits to Edinburgh. Despite his advancing cancer, Alastair Darling was following Jeremy Hunt’s budget statement due on 22 November with keen interest (Alastair Darling died surrounded by family on 30 November).  

When Rachel Reeves asked him how she should respond to Hunt’s statement, she told us, the former chancellor replied: 

Make sure the sums add up

Don’t get caught in a political trap

And remember to give them hope

What hope? With so many political traps set, so much ill-willing media, and such a confusion of sums to add up, hope will be squeezed into a tight space between fiscal fine tuning, unintended consequences and real-life experience of ‘ordinary people’. There will be much talk of winners and losers and very little contact between those who strike lucky and unlucky.

Who and where are life’s winners and losers? North, South, East, West, there’s precious little poetry in the words and numbers of budgets, but pausing for breath on edge of Winter Solstice darkness, here’s a selection of poems drawing on a wealth of experience, the kind of human insight that could enhance political debate – and open a path to hope.

1. Who wins the race?

Race is a funny word

It implies someone will win. 

American Arithmetic: Natalie Diaz.

Counting was the theme of this year’s National Poetry Day. But what does counting mean for the millions of people who are numbers not names, the ones who don’t really count?

Natalie Diaz’s American Arithmetic is an arresting protest laying bare the official data that renders thousands of Native Americans invisible, the state-sanctioned abuse concealed in statistics. In prosaic terms, the poet tells us Native Americans make up less than one per cent of the American population, yet 1.9% of all police killings, ‘the highest per capita of any race’.

Nathalie Diaz, Pulitzer prize winning poet, associate professor, former professional basketball player and Mojave American activist, was born and grew up in the Fort Mojave Indian Village in Needles, California.  That’s where she learned to count.

American Arithmetic, from the Colonial Love Song collection, is set in the US but echoes across the world. Powerful, poignant and sometimes painfully playful, it prods meaningless terms into life; the racism hidden in that ‘funny word’ race. It implies someone will win. ‘Who wins the race that is not a race?’  

2. An unexpected better way

I’m puzzled by my loss of memory

The sudden cull of my vocabulary

Forgotten: David Perman

Here is unexpected hope.  David Perman’s Collected and New Poems includes three poems confronting his stroke. Head on. Exploring a strange new landscape without maps, groping for names in his garden of now anonymous roses, meeting loved-ones without labels on the doorstep – trying to make sense of a world that is both familiar and foreign, rediscovery is part of the recovery, and it is recorded movingly in poetry of courageous insight.

A cull of vocabulary might seem particularly cruel to someone who made a living from language. In 20 years of working for BBC World Service, David Perman managed radio broadcasts in English, Arabic and Greek. He was A Square Peg in Bush House, In retirement he publishes and writes poetry. Known for his quick-witted repartee, ‘shooting from the lip’, after his stroke he found a blockage slowing the flow – and yet, against expectation, decides it’s much better that way.  

Not just for me but for a wider world perhaps

How second thoughts might deepen debate

Make politics more palatable,

The listening mode instead of ‘point of order’

Might make the markets pause and be

more mature, might restrain the guns

while communications prospered –

no more shooting from the hip, so to speak.

Repartee: David Perman

our beautiful wind turbine against the setting sun, Pond Cottage photo Fay Young

3. Fear not. The Future is not F*cked

yiv aywiz bin free, ma quine. it’s jist

humankind is a god factory.

yer aye churnin oot deities,

Gloria in Exelsisoleum: Mae Diansangu

 ‘How do we let go of the world of oil and all it represents? Friends of the Earth Scotland put the question politicians find safer to dodge (does it feature in budget or election debates?) to poets in The Future is not F*cked a brilliantly conceived spoken word night in Aberdeen, the city where ‘some people have three cars’  

That night produced a film and a book.

Watch the film (HERE) download the book (HERE). If only more activism was so carefully constructed: connecting rather than dividing.   The Future is not F*cked began with FoE’s Just Transition Organiser for the North East, Scott Herrett, who wanted to use art to kindle hope of a new future in a city where oil binds so many lives together.

The black stuff still flows (you will have noticed). But screenings in Aberdeen, Glasgow and Edinburgh have stirred animated discussion inspired by stories of people whose lives depend on oil.  Or do they?    ‘An fa telt ye, ye wis powerless? asks Mae Diansangu in her rousing Gloria in Excelsisoleum as the ‘crude god’ becomes a ‘finite god’.

The poetry in Doric, Scots and English is powerful and deeply personal. Spoken from experience.

Crude weeps into the drip-tray of my nightmares

sour gas pollutes my palate, guilt saturates

everything we knew because – of course, we knew.

NRRD: John Bolland

The Future is not F*cked is available for community screening.

4. We don’t have to be losers

See all the shit-stained statues 

With all their ancient values 

Those concrete ghosts 

that still decide 

Be the Hammer: Aidan Moffat

‘We’ll still be here.’ There’s a promise, and threat in Be the Hammer, the last track on the first album by Andrew Wasylyck and Tommy Perman.  Ash Grey and the Gull Glides Home is an experimental collaboration of soaring new music at times uplifting and unsettling, joyous and searching. Aidan Moffat’s sonorous song poem at the end adds a lingering, ambiguous message.

Towards the end of a year when democracy shudders in fright, one image in particular sticks in my mind: those shit-stained statues and the ancient values that still decide. The concrete ghosts that shape the laws that support the status quo, keeping us all in our rightful place.  

Who are we? Where do we stand? Winners, losers? Accepting or resisting? Ready to rebuild?  

From Ash Grey and the Gull Glides Home

Be the hammer. Whatever the message, there’s no room for apathy. Moffat’s deep intoning (like a priest, I think, without a catechism) is strangely comforting in its strong insistence. ‘Just be sure that you’re still feeling’.  Here we all are, then. And (politicians take note) ‘Come tomorrow we’ll still be here’.    

First published on Sceptical Scot   

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